Those Girls by Lauren Saft

Author:Lauren Saft [Saft, Lauren]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Publisher: Poppy
Published: 2015-06-08T23:00:00+00:00

ALEXANDRA HOLBROOK

After Happy New Year! all I saw was Drew and Veronica attached at the face. Like they were doing it out of spite, purposefully to illustrate to me and everyone else that they were together and Drew and I were not. I couldn’t process our kiss or Marc Seidman’s question—why he asked it, if he knew something I didn’t, if he, like everyone else, liked to joke about how we were obsessed with each other, or if he, as Drew’s other “best” friend, really knew something. Like how Mollie did, like how she had reasons and motivations behind her dare. Maybe he did, too?

But none of that really mattered. Here I was thinking about Drew and the kiss and the question and what it all meant and there he was thinking about Veronica and all the sex they were going to have. He laughed off the comment. Everyone did. So, so would I. Ha, ha. Drew and Alex, always hanging out. They’re so obsessed with each other. Ha, ha. Suuuuuch a funny old joke.

I snuck Fernando up to my room, briefly stopping at my mom’s party to wish her and all her friends a happy new year. She asked if I’d been drinking. I told her someone had brought one bottle of champagne and we’d toasted at midnight. She, who had clearly also been drinking, made me promise that no one who drank would drive. Obviously, Mom! How irresponsible do I look?

We made out on my bed for a while, and I couldn’t believe that I actually had a boy to make out with on New Year’s. This was so unlike me. I was never the girl with the boy. Drew was the only boy who’d ever been in my room.

“Sweet posters,” Fernando said of my wall full of concert posters. “We should go see some of these bands sometime,” he said between kisses.

“We should,” I said. I took a fistful of his thick hair. I continued to maul him, because I didn’t feel like talking.

We kissed for a while, and I went for his pants. Fuck it. Fuck it all, I thought.

“Hey, stop,” he said.

“What’s wrong?” I asked. “I want to.”

“Alex,” he said, the inflection of the exxx on my name and the fact that he said my name all the time, like after he said anything: Cool, Alex. Great practice, Alex. That’s an awesome T-shirt, Alex. You’re such an awesome, hip chick, and I love secretly making out with you, but I am still not asking you to be my girlfriend, Alex was starting to get annoying. “You’re really drunk.”

And I was officially humiliated. Officially, no one would ever have any desire to have sex with me. I’d be the last virgin in the world.

“It’s not that I don’t want to,” he said, rubbing his eyes. I got off him and sat there, on my blue bed, legs straight before me, my shoulders hunched in shame. “You’re just so drunk,” he said. “You’ll regret it.”

“What makes you think this is my first time?” I snapped back.

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